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My First Labour..

 

    My first job...was looking for it after my dad gave me green light on it during a trip to ranau juz to get his golf membership and terus check on vacancies over the newspapers and scored 2 interviews da next day. I got it pretty lucky i guess, i just so happen to come across the luck. U c i was just walking around in 1 borneo after 2 interviews i had for the day and saw this notice on 9 west. I stopped and looked. Dolley (supervisor) saw me and approached. Cool huh? She asked if i were looking for a job. I sed yea. Den start talking la, den she asked if i wana do walk-in interview. I was like, yeah sure, y not~! Den talk2 on the way, she hint2 like i'm in ody dis, like, we need somebody like u, u can speak english well-dat's juz wat we need here, etc.

        Den a day after dat, i got in and started working. I met kak carol(assistant supervisor) and mislianie(retail assistant). Was pretty...how to say..awkward cuz u dunno da ppl there. U juz do wat u were told and dat's it. But kak carol was pretty hip so we weren't bored. Dat day we belum buka shop, was stil like, open d items, tag it, price it, check list it..all dat hard stuff la. Misilianie, a lady who's 28 dis yr, wit a baby, divorced. Kak Carol was friendly, she talks to me. =)

        The next day a new girl came, Aisah. Well she hates her name, she likes Aishah/Aisyah better. She was at nine west if i wasn't mistaken the day before (the day i got in). I got mee and chicken fingers and i still remember offering to them both while eating at the store room and aisyah asked for one. Hee..

        It was pretty fun and exciting, ba sakai kan. Apa lagi si kawan yg selama ni stay d rumah n got bored with cp sj, berabis ba rajinnya. Sampai kak carol sed i rajin buat keja there. Waha~! =) kambang~!

        Den on the weekend we start to operate already. I check on the items cuz masih ada yg teda price tag and the bar code. Nasib i pandai2 cek. Hee..and there were the bosses (share holders, CEO, 1 Borneo ppl, hong kong artists) came and bought a lot~! Those artists bought like 5K~! Bosses bought those luggages they-ve been eyeing on and Mr Francis (one of our boss) was very humble and friendly, he introduced himself to kak carol over the counter and shook hands wit me too~! (i was near them). So nice oh. And not forget to mention his daughter is actually Cassandra Wong from my primary school~! My she turns into a lady already~! So pretty~! Her dad sed she juz came back form s'pore and brought her to the shop and she bought mihla~! My cust~!! And u kno wat i terharu wen she hugged me b4 leaving...awwww...so nice oh dey 1 family..

        Mr Peter, our CEO is the biggest boss there. His wife is from Germany i guess, cuz she speaks like German i tink...she gave a rm1,000-vase to the shop just for the flowers~! And the flowers must be fresh~! Dude~! Talkin bout wasting money~! I suggested to dolley to get those colorful marbles instead of those expensive flowers-replace every week and costs rm40-60 everytime~! That's a lot to waste! Mr Chris is our store..aaa, like he urus our stocks la. Den there's this Mr Phua, he gives us our salary. Mr Dominic, the man wearing spectacles, 1st time i saw him he was moving like dancing oh. Heee funny man. His kid looks just like him to top that off~!

        Mr Franco (Dolley's in-law also~! Married her sis~!) is the 2nd boss i guess after mr Peter, he is sed to take care of the staffs and goes around to check on us. Very good la him. Caring oso, i agree. Ms Su, i like her wen i saw her~! She likes to put her hair on one side and is a busy woman, i can tell.

        Day by day, i started to get annoyed wit mislianie. Why? Cuz she bikin panas la. Nda bagus i trash on other ppl over2. Just say general words la, not specific. Just annoyed with her la~! Me and aisyah got along very well~! We've been good friends ever since we knew each other~! I hope can go to best friends la, she's nice. Very low-key, very humble, somebody i can talk to and have fun and she IS FUN~! She likes to do this high-pitched voice and like, "eeeEEEEEE mengada2~! Aku shwey kang~!" I like it wen she does dis, and i tink kak carol too~! =P

        Dolley is a very business-minded person. Wen it comes to work, she works and only works. She is strict but she cares, believe me she cares her staffs. And i can't believe my ears wen she ask me to try on her new-bought lip balm from skin food~! And asked me to get some more~! And more~! like 5 times ba~! I sed enuf2~! Still say not enuf she sed..hee...she's nice..she blanja juga...ms Su oso~!

        There were 2 ppl from Braun Buffel KL to come and help us on displaying and on the stocks. Was very nice too~! Ms Joey and Penny~! Ms Penny on the display and ms Joey on the stocks. She was friendly wen she first came in~! She bought us big apple oso before she left~! Such nice ppl~!

        Then when i was closing my sale on this customer, kak carol asked over the counter, who's customer is dis one? Mislianie interrupted and sed it was hers. I was like, huh??? Actly b4 dat i din kno about dis who's customer was it and bla bla bla, den i saw kak carol key in dat bitch's name and i was like..shit~! Wtf~! 2 items u kno~! U kno how much 2 items costs already??? 600++ at least~! Fuck oh~! Fuck dat woman~! Senyum2 lagi dia sana tu pukiayam betul tu pmpuan. Ever since dat day i hated her and for more of her annoying attitudes.

        Aisyah is our star. She really is, she can sell~! She makes ppl buy stuff, unlike me, i only can make dem buy mebe 30% chance of buying, but she, she's over 5-%~! Ppl sure buy wan~! And our sale for June reached 80K~! Was so happy.

        Gaji keluar on 30th june. I got 535.08. Huh?? What happened to my allowances and transport??? Wtf?? Go to office and asked. Dat jennifer sed kira ikut hari. I was like, okay, dat basic 500 divide to 30 days, times the days i started to work (26 days). But dey silap, 25 hari ja. den kena tolak lagi dat stupid epf and scoso thingy. Epf mahalnya, like 47 oh mine kena tolak. Shit oh. Napa la so kesian me. Den me n Aisyah asked for our commission. Dat jennifer sed hujung bulan julai. So ok la.

        Den tiba2 just few days ago, she called our shop (i agkat) and she told me since i started to work on 5th june, i can't get commission. Yg ada time 1st/2nd sj yg ada commission. Wtf??? Apa ni?? Gila ka ni pmpuan?? After i hung up i went inside the store and cried like so kesian dis. Ish. I msg aisyah (she had her day off dat day) n told her, she oso started on 5th ba. She was like, wat?? Mana dolley? I sed dolley kuar. She sed she panas, follow me quit the job..den d showroom sana counter i pukiayam2 sana. C dyg(a newbie) heard and was like, "aik? Since wen dis girl pandai mencarut ni???"

        I was crying like shit, duli la dat stupid camera saw my face, i dun give a shit. Public sana luar tu? Mau ambil gmbar pun i dun care. Biar smua tau org braun buffel kena bully by dat stupid bitch.  Den baru la dat day evening we got a memo saying bout the commission dat. I din wana sign it, but dolley asked me so..aih. But watev, the memo was for 11th july ody. meaning i 11th july baru tau la. I told my parents, my dad was like, "if u wana fight for it, go ahead la. No stopping u." Den my mom sed, "dun la smpai gaduh besar juz for 200 bucks." Ya i kno but it's my sweat ur talking bout~! I surely want my reward ma~! Takkan la org lain yg enjoy my reward dat~! That's shit and so shit double shit~! No wonder la my dad is the boss now, he can't take orders and hates shits like these~! I surely will be a boss just watch me~!

        Da next day aisyah din have mood to work..i tengo dia pun sedih sa...nangis dia...cian dia...her house was robbed wen she went to kl for the training (syg kan i wana quit ody, if not dpt p kl wit kak carol n enjoy shopping lagi~! =P). She gave her money to her mom and i pinjam her 50 bucks. Kesian..she harap dat commission ba dat..den dis...so shit oh...napa ba tu bitch nda pandai kestau, she sed ada ni~! Over da phone and to dolley~! She sed she got tell me before i gave dat letter to my dad~! Pukiayam dia la sana~! I'm not stupid la ok, i'm not DAT DESPERATE for a job okay, i have money, i just mau rasa wat is it like to work~! If i know there would b no commission, y da fuck i wana work dat da 1st place? cuba la tanya sepa2 yg mau keja teda komisyen, mau ka dia? org palui sj yg mau tuh~! And den da time wen we asked bout our gaji dat she got say ba hujung bulan komisyen~! Penipu~!

        Aisyah sed if still can't get dat commission she quit. I agree, i can't work wit a place dat has done me wrong. So shit oh ppl like dat bitch. Penipu, manipulator~! I don't care if ur reading dis now, i don't care~! U bitch suck and fuck off la u wit ur stubby nose~! I hate u~! memang betul ba~! Apa sa mau takut~! Who are you~! You're just a stupid H&R >kono`< sj~! Ish geram oh sa~!

        Ok i feel a lot better now after pour it all out and head banging songs with my stereo on full blast in my bedroom. =)) Dolley sed she'll tell mr peter bout dis and we'll c wat happens. I hope dat bitch kena buang kerja oh~! Ada ka buat letter perjanjian like dat~! org boleh tertipu oh~! I learnt my lesson oso, keep and eye out for details and bitches like her in the future. Terus i dun feel like going back to dat company oh, habib la, 1,500 a month. Yusof sure will give me a spot there. He wants me and kak carol to be there ba tu. hehe. =P

        Tomorrow's my last day of work. Da next day will be shopping and shopping and hang out~! So excited~! Can't wait~! But i'll miss that job... =( kak carol..aisyah..dolley..ish not dayang~! Not here i dun like her dat newbie~! Backstabber dat i can tell~! Ppl tell too~! If i got money i'll belanja dem again like last saturday, secret recipe geng~! Hee..cakes and western food~! Felt nice, i wana spend my 1st spending on belanja dem, my 1st work place ppl, my friends..my family. And my 1st paycheck. Hee...ok la dats it for now. I'll update u on dat bitch again, donchu worry.

B-U-S-T-E-D~!

               

Okay, i had several busted moments before, be it busted from cops wen i was still learning to drive cuz i din close da door properly (it swung open wen i was driving), busted seeing wit a male fren by my ex (he thought i was wit another boy, so he ended it witout notice), busted dating wit my frens by my besfren (he din kno n he got mad wen i told him i met my x n his frens), busted wearing dis cleavage-revealing dress during a dinner (courtesy of dad's stupid fren, i dunno but i dun like him i tell u), busted driving around back wen i din hav licence (i 'parked' da car into da drain, wadaya tink? Haha~!), anything la, and i juz experienced dis busted moment juz now. Yeah juz now. I repeat, JUZ NOW.

                Wat was da crime? Okay lemme start from A. I noticed my vajayjay was getting itchier n i kno something was up, dis was last week. Imagine, since last yr again dat, my vajayjay smelt SMELLY. I mean smelly like fish-smell 4 God's sake. Like period smell 4 da girls. I thought it was nothing.

                So i let it b until last Monday. I din wana blog about it, cuz my bro has fs too, n scared he sees dis n tell my parents. So i freaked out la kan, ba ur vajayjay, ur most important reproduction organ (quite, ever since the test-tube babies story sprung out), ur sexual organ- besides your boobs n plump lips like Angelina Jolie, suddenly itch like HELL n u can't scratch cuz ur afraid ur vajayjay will get luka if u scratch it. I learn science oso ba, there's more receptors there in the vagina's surface, in English, it's more sensitive there than other parts of da body. I tink da most, besides da back of ur knee, ur armpit, ur...wat else...i tink dats it.

                Okay so i asked my besfren, Roger, to come to da rescue. Y i din go 2 y parents? Well no. 1, i dun wan my mom to get worried. 2, i dowan my dad to tink lain2 bout me. No. 3, i dowan my future to study in kl got ruined cuz of dis. No. 4, i trust rog n depend on him wen i'm in trouble. He's like my angel now after everything. N always will be.

                I sed i wana go 2 clinic cek down there n bla bla bla...i was really nervous wen i got out of da hse to get into da car (he picked me up at home), u kno, my dad has unidentified schedule since he works alone,  n dat means he works anytime he wants, any day, anytime. Gud kan jadi bos. Masuk keta, i wore my shades, takut kena spot by my dad's frens or relatives (u kno how CONCERNED dey r wen dey c u otw p klinik. Concerned's a nicer word, rather than da B_s_bo_y word. Hee..), ada la skit menyesal nda bawa topi, dat wud complete my celeb undercover. Hee..

                Rog parked jauh skit dari da clinic in kk, u kno permai clinic dat, dekat wisma merdeka tu, ya sana la. Last time i went there was cuz i was sick. Demam. I still rmmber, i was dressed like dis eskimo guy, thanks 2 my dad's sweat jacket (a very gud heat-trapper), slippers n pants. Da chinese Dr asked in a joking tone, "baru turun dari gunung?" he smiled. I din reply, wtf, i was in pain, cold like i was inside dis cooler box in antartic 4 God's sake n he still got time 2 joke. i thought doctors r supposed to cure ppl ASAP. Esp me~! Wat if i die?? (yeah i'm traumatic about my health) I still hav a lot to do, n i mean A LOT to do in dis world~! Wat bout my customers?? Dey need me to make dem beautiful~!

               Ehem, so back to da story, we walked frm da park near wisma, i was soooooooo traumatized by da honks~! Asal got ppl hon i turned n c, takut it was my dad or smbdy who knew me~! Thank god teda, hee..i go inside la kan, cek in n kena timbang berat, wow mine's 55kg. Lost 2kg den. Well i got happy, juz a while la, cuz i got a BIGGER problem 2 get all 'excited' about. I waited, dat 5 minute wait was like, a whole year of waiting, like i was in d afterworld, according to Muslim's belief, it's time is like, millions of years= 1 day on earth. Can u imagine dat?? Neither can i. So long, i was all nervous, my heart pumped at 150 per minute i tink. My fren was talkin bout da possible outcome of my visit, keputihan most probably he sed. It's usual to happen (i hope).

               Da nurse in cream, crisp uniform called me. I went in wit Rog, i needed somebody there wit me u kno, in case there was bad news ka apa. Hee..So masuk la, den told da Dr who looked like Mr Raja, younger by 4 years la. Yes he's indian. I dun care anymore if it was a lady or not, wtf, my 'baby' needs treatment~! ASAP~! Doc sed he himself dunno, he even go cek a book n asked da nurse to type i dunno wat sana com.

                Trus kena suruh tunggu d luar, i waited again...so anxious...Rog was there, thank god. Tunggu la, waited...hoping it was all gonna b alrite. Everytime got any nurse yg keluar masuk bilik2 dat, i look worriedly at their faces, hoping dey wud call my name, but no. Den last2 i was called, go to dis emergency room lagi tu~! Makin panik sa. Da nurse asked me to strip dance, minus da dance n my top getting naked. Wakakakak~! I pulled down my pants, nasib got towel she gave me, boleh la cover my ugly-rounded ass n big like elephant thighs. Dis is it, i lied down, another nurse came in. Assistance i tink. Dey asked me to open my legs, dun shy2, we all have it, watev la, i WAS shy~! Mestila~! Haiya~! Last2 open juga la, pa leh buat, wakakaka~!


            Dey put dis penis-like thingy inside, my god, it felt like da real thing u kno. Only colder. Dey asked me to breath in, i breath in, n to make my muscles there relax, i imagined like i was making love. Wakakakak~! Thank god my muscles din contract or wat, if not..heeeeshhh..dey sed dey wana cuci there. Ok, cuciiiiiii~ Bring it on bebeh. In a more scared-tone dat is. I felt like i was having period wen suddenly dis liquid, lots of em, came out from my vajayjay, down to my ass went into da sheet da nurse place underneath. I asked wat was it, dey sed keputihan, many oh da nurse yg pegang dat penis. I was like, MY GOD...after dey were done, i waited outside again wit rog askin me wat happened in there. Geez.

            Den masuk balik, doc sed he kena hantar da specimen as he call it, to kl to get it checked. Ok, in a bout 1 week. Ok no prob. Den kena bagi antibiotik, 2 types. Kena mkn b4 bfast, lunch n dinner. Den kena beli dis another ubat d farmasi, Pharmex, d segama. Okay, we went there n bought la, 2 kena beli. WOW, Rm50 melayang, suda la d klinik bayar 90, aih....rog paid all. Wat can i do witout him? NOTHING. I dun hav money, rm40 la ada. Aih...so sorry rog...i burden u so much..so..we went back to his car..cried all da way.

                He realized it, putting his arm behind me. Went in, he comforted me a while...i drank water a bit..i was like...so sad..i never thought anything like dis wud happen to me..dis disease, bacteria, cancer, u kno. Dat was my weakest moment, i was so depressed, i cried all my might under his arms...now dat tink about it, i tink dat was my saddest point, sadder than got dumped by my exes (yeah, i was da one dat got dumped, not da dumper. Surprise~! yeah im serious~! U may tink i'm dis bitch dat dumps ppl, change guys every 5 minutes like my panties, but im not. I'm loyal, i stick to my guy)

                I went back home, feeling miserable..scared..like i had no more chance of living after da visit..stressed...depressed, scared dat my parents will find out..well, i tink dats not in my worry-list again, cuz my mom got a call frm dat stupid nurse frm da clinic, telling her bout my result came ody frm kl 2day. Juz now i tink. She confronted me bout it while i was listening to janet jackson. She thought i got da check da same date i cheked my boobs for cancer false alarm. N to make things hotter, my dad was there n he asked la...BUSTED. Dats da word. Da biggest busted moments, one of da biggest busted moments la..i was like..WHY???? Why did u call da num????? I asked dat stupid nurse to call MY num, not my mom's~! Paluuuuuuui~! Aiyo~! I cried while kena interrogate.

                Dad sed, do dat 1 more time n u won't c Rog again. Parents were like, y did i go to rog, not mom ka..i dun wan dem to worry bha...like last time i used to make troubles n make dem suspicious n worried bout me..mom crying evrynite (accord to dad) cuz i'm such a bitch at home.. evrything was goin fine, until juz now...i hear dad playoin da guitar evrynite now..like he's happy now...he get to meet his uncle in Indon again..sepa nda happy to meet his never-met uncle n relatives..den came dis...i hope evrything'll go ok again..

               I wana tell rog but he hasn't replied my sms since juz now..geez..so i blog la bout it..mom sed we gotta go 2 da clinic 2morro 4 da result...i hope dat stupid doc won't say anything dangerous anymore. Cukup la all dis. CUKUP~

                Oh ya, i juz got my P tadi. Went 2 JPJ. Paid rm60 oh. Dad thought it was 40. Hee..Okay, dats all. I'll tell y'all how'd it go 2morro la k. Now i juz wana unwind on Boogie n get my thoughts on other stuff.

Life After SPM

             Good morning~! It's been...i dunno, i tink it's been a year since i last wrote dis blog~! Wakakakak~! Now i'm back, juz 2 remind me of my ol days in da future~! Heee...and i dun hav anythin 2 do now AKA free. Well i hav my Warcraft 2 finish but i feel like blogging now. Wakakakak~!

            Well now as any typical (well not so typical since i dunno where 2 study YET and i dun apply 4 any places-colleges, ipta's , ipt's or watever there is). Isn't dat amazing??? It's crazy since i put 100% faith in registering on da spot, like i find my place n juz go 4 it~! My frens were like, ko ada apply IPT? I will like, teda. Matrix? Hell no~! I'm not intending on spending 2 years of my life (or is it 2 1/2? Dunno la =P) in a place where i need 2 wear pants n shirts (well my bro went there n wore a suit da 1st time in his freakin life~! Hows dat?? Wit SHOES 4 god's sake~!)

         So i'm gona go 4 swasta punya. Yeap u heard me. As far as furthering, i will say hell no too~! Wakakakak~! I'm sooooo not in2 studying, well u can c my results, I got 6A's- english, arts, tasawur islam, pen. agama islam, est (eng 4 science n tech) and math~! Yeap math~! Thanks Mrs Raja~! U made me frm a failure in math to a genius in math~! Love ya~! I wouldn've made it witout her~! As 4 my math teachs, can show urself 2 da door cuz u guys suck~! Well not gonna mention names here. Wakakakak~!

       So there, i sed b4 to my parents i wan n iphone frm Apple~! Yeap da touchie2 wan~! N a car~! Well da car gotta hold my dad sed cuz i got dis study thingy n he sed dat car's gonna wreck wen i'm not around later. So okay, iphone 4 now. Dunno wen dey gonna buy 4 me, me be at kl or wat. Watever but i wan it b4 i go study~!

       OKay as 4 my study, da plan now is, we, as in my mom n I, go kl later on 26th May n go check out da places i'd marked~! Isn't dat great?? Hee...5 days man~! Come back on 30th~! Hee...we gonna stay at Sabah House if i'm not mistaken da name, it's juz RM15 per nite~! OMG~! Mom sed it's 4 sabah ppl who go kl 4 purposes like us. Hee...dats great~!

       My 1st choice's gonna b Beaubelle. I wan it~! Tia peduli ko sana~! My dad sed he dowan yg murah2 punya certificate like u can juz get at a small salon d inanam, so i got him da ribu2 punya~! Wakakakak~! Da place 2 stay there 4 International student is like, 1k per month man~! 1k~!!! Is it big? yea i tink so cuz wen i asked my dad yesterday he direct say no. wakakakaka~! Well, mom sed she ody called yesterday n da lady sed she'll emel da charges 2 her. Great~! Aih things r goin according 2 plan...except my dad sed his nosy lil fren sed Uitm got offer course oso. Kimet! Nda guna~! Hish~! Perusak oh~!

       Nvmn, i say i wan kl, den kl i will get. Dun care~! I wan kl~! y? Well no 1, i'll b away n nobody's gonna tell me wat 2 do, ask permission 2 g out, nobody will eat my momom's, my stuff will b 'in place', as i look at it, hee..n most importantly, i'll live by myself~! Dis's wat i want~! Damn it my parents juz dun get it~! wat i can take care of myself ba~!

        Yesterday i cut my hair~! A jaw-dropping 28 bucks for a salon at da G floor of cp. Seriously. Cut 13, iron 15. Well rog sed i look slimmer wen ironed. Well wat da heck. Not so big diff i must say. Hee...my poor hair~! I can smell da burns man...but i'm satisfied~! Hee..glad~! 1st time 2 b happy after a hair cut~!

Hari Raya..terkenang daku kpd si dia...

       Eeeew meremang bulu romaku...hahahahaha~!! Happy Raya ppl~!! Yesterday ba, my bro bw da triton dis..jelez aku..but syg he can`t speed..wahahaahaha~!! Daddy sed cant laju2, 90 n below sj..kasiaaaannnnnn~! But dat car is terrific...very. Heee...

       Ye i rili wana go hny`s hse........aiyaaaaaa~!!! Geramnya aku....cuz if i terus say i wana go 2 my bf`s hse memang CONFIRM kena reject....hish...HISSSHHHH~!! Well...c la next yr..hny i`m sorry i cant buka puasa wit u selalu n go raya 2 ur hse dis yr..next yr will b diff~!! Semangat ni...tau2 mesti got 1 parent ikut sma2...at least puasa`s over, i can kiss him again~!! Heeeee....=P

      My baby got 5 chicks asking 4 his num..dui....n 2 guys. Wahahahahaa~!! Gay ody c rog. No ba his fren`s frens ba dat. Last nite he was sooooo scared..he ask me, klu tu kucing miao2 sj..nd papa ka tu?? Den i sed, dia buat apa? He sed da cat stood n walked around...i sed, dia tengo mana? Den he sed pintu. Wahaha....ni kali ko....i sed, ba jaga la kau...ada tetamu tu..dat time was like, 12 smthng u kno~!! Haha..den he like, ish tumbuk ko....jan eh~! Den i like, kes takut2 dia lg la! Wahaha...smpai time we msg dat i tertidur ody ba, he called n i terbgn. Den i agkt la..

       Time he called dat i check my msg..he msged, del..mana ko....aku dlm selimut ni...ahahahaha...cian ba dia....den i like, wa takut suda dia. Wahahahahaa~!! Ngam2 he alone ba dat time..cuz his rrommates all go balik kg..haha~!! Cian2...den i like, ala mgkin dia mo kuar ba tu. Den he like, 2 antu d bilik ko tu skrg. I sed, ndaaaa, cua ko tengo balakang..wahahaha~!! Tengo kiri..kanan..wahahaha~! I sed again, cua ko tengo bwh katil....den he sed, ah teda2. Dat time he ody berani, he go on his tv kuat2. Haha...he sed da antu ody at my place, dia jln pakai da phone. I like, nda dia d sebalik dinding d kpala ko tuuu..wahahaha~!! Stupid o kan..haha~!!

       Aiya 2 day i hope can go 2 pika`s hse o...kena ugut ni dis morning pkul 1 ka...she sed if we all (her frens) dun come, siap kamiurg. Haha...

Its Saaaaalllllleeeee~!!!!!!!!!!

        OMG all da stores r on sale now~!! Excluding levi`s..heheeee...I went 2 warisan last sun (and CP) n evrything is on sale~!!! I wana buy Polo dis time~!! I tink evrybdy must hav dat...i wan i wan i wan! N da fur jacket at Misz....my gosh...so kesian i c dem...on sale since last season n still there..like i wana buy again but i ody hav 1...so sad o ppl dun appreci8 furs...

       I wana buy Maybelline`s new foundation dat~!! But not now...i ody hav my Za...i juz bougth it man. Haha...i wana buy da lipgloss da~ttt~!! I wan i wan i wan~!! I muz hav it~!! Well...dat day can`t buy cuz daddy ody came dat time...balik2 kol lg tu, apa nda trus lompat p keta. Haha~!!

        Lama ody i no go tuition...haha memang kena tegur ni nanti balik...memang ni. I confirm! 100%! O ya, PMR ppl so lucky dis yr..got a guy wit a mike 2 stop d exam..so gud...haiiihhh....

         There was a tree kena kes tumbang last mon. Kesian tu pokok...adaka patut dia kes tumbang? Tak patut..tak patut...da Penampang is teaching da WRONG thing, dunchu tink so? She`s teaching da students 2 bye2 trees n hello civilisation. I kno it`ll endanger da students but dun u tink its our fault 2 build a school IN A HUTAN?? I tink so. Da school`s fault 2 b so in da pedalaman n perkampungan. Eh apa ba aku ckp ni.

        As 4 my life, evrything`s going fine...as fine as my face. Hahahaha~!! Meaning it has bumps n imperfections here n there but still, it flows. Haha~!! Now i wana finish off reading my Cleo...so many info 2 sedut keluar....heee...i love dis month`s edition~!! All about fall~!! I oso love August wan, cua it has CLEO Beauty Hall of Fame~!! N faces of da winners of Estee Lauder Model search 2007~!! Ahaha~!! Now i kno which is pretty which is scary.

I Hav Another Bestie~!!

           Ahaha..i talked 2 him juz now..bout i wana b best frens wit him 4ever n ever..hehe....n i told him...da fact dat he`s gonna wait 4 me till he`s old n marry me...not gonna work...like...i`ll feell bad, totally bad if dat rili happens...gosh..like he devotes his whole life 2 me....so he understood n sed, okay lets b besties...i asked him...u still hav ur wish 2 hav me? Haha..he sed yeah..boy...god help him....i wana c him happy...my baby boy....

           He juz can`t accept it if K`s wit me...like, he`s his best fren...n i`m da 1 he rili loves...2gether, we`ll make him go crazy..i dowan dat...aih....he asked me not 2 go 4 it...i say dat depends....cuz...hehe, da more i talk 2 K...da more i like him...wana kno him better....da more intrsted i m...but there`s juz 1 thing..da con....wen he gets mad....run 4 da hills...hehe...but i find it stimulating..makes me high o if my boy`s like dat...tink i`m nuts? Look at urself. N he`s veeeery um...how 2 say...affectionate..very....n wen he`s in love...he takes care of his gal very much...haha..i like da sound of dat...o ya u ppl wana get him? try la, he`s on me.

Rog`s mad at me....aiyooooo~

            Rog, my close, best fren is mad at me rite at dis very moment since..a.....ummm...i balik dr solat terawi la lebih krg.. Well...i kno da Y question is coming...so...um...here`s d ans...okay u kno Kyo in my F. Frens dat? He`s a hottie n hehe...i like hotties. U kno la, Del ba ni. So i`m flirting wit him now..n he flirts back...n c kwn, who still loves me dearly, merajuk pasal tu...ai rog...teda papa ba sa sama dia rog...kalau aku da boy aku dah ckp kan, aku kestau kau....aiiiiii..sakit gigi aku..

          I juz found out...y he broke up wit me....haha...i feel...ntah la....nda terkata....he msg me...baru ja...AAAAIIIIHHH NAJIIBBBB~!! Y....wat a stupid reason....stupidest~!! Ur so stupid!!

          Okay next~! Uhum..physics is 2morro~!!! Aaaaarrrrrrgggghhhh!!!! Mampus la aku!!! Matai2~!!!

I`m Surviving..

             Days go by..more n more cries i`d made....is it worth it? Yeah...y? Sbb he meant so much 2 me...i love him very much...so much....more than trial spm..hehe..how stupid is dat? But i say..love is blind. It`s true...i sanggup put down my crown..my dignity 4 him..i sanggup plead...i sanggup do anything....n i was happy being blind...very. Cuz god let me 2 feel so in love wit smbdy...n i had mine...but...not 4 long...

               I tink..i shud let go....but my heart wins over my mind...n all da nasihat2 frens gave me...like...4get him...got more fish out there...haha..i dun listen...dis`s wat happens wen i let my heart take control..i buat pekak ja...i`m so hopeless...y ba...most of my love story end up like dis...is it me? Or da guy...or my parents...or...mebe God mau kes sengsara sa...rasa apa tu heartbreak lama2..supaya aku dpt bljr how 2 get through it...mebe...i guess...but i guess He`s giving me overdose of heartbreaks ody...so i wish...there`ll b no more crying...no more break up..let my next boy..b my last...

             If u love smbdy..i mean, rili2 syg dat smbdy...if he doesn`t want u..n he`s happy wit smbdy...b happy..dats wat i learn...n ppl go in n out of our lives 4 a reason..i guess da reason He made me meet Najib is 2 know dat there`s still a guy who u can make husband wit..cuz i rili felt his love 4 me...rili2...ohhh..i`m crying again....

              Hhmm...won`t it b great if...1 day.....juz mebe...hopefully...i rili hope...he come 2 me n say, will u marry me? Haha...i`ll b da happiest bride in da world....if only....if only...

              ?? Smbdy by da name of Max suddenly msg me...he saw my num in najib`s prof...biar betul...hmmm...i tink..even da most hensem gila babeng pnya manusia in da world msg me...i`d rather b single n wait 4 him...i hope i`ll get over dis quick..it`s rili affecting my life...Sa`s worried ody..haha..cuz she saw me wit red eyes n bengkak dua2...

            My wish 4 da nite is....I hope I`ll hav a gud, loving, caring n loyal bf...who`s gonna b my hubby n hav kids wit..n b happy wit our kids..till da moment we both die..God make it come true pls...

Wat a Wonderful World..

        Hi ppl~! Okay lets c...where do i start? U kno my boy dat najib ryte? Well, i juz found out we`d broken up dis afternoon. Shocking? Yeah me too. I mean, hello? Witout notice? Apa I`m like a room 4 rent here? Hello~! Well I mite not sound mad cuz i`d been mad wen i saw dat so i`m not rili mad now..juz....sad...u kno.

       From wat i c...he`s not dat serious. He`s not commited-suddenly. Dunno y mebe ada wayar terputus in his brain. Or he juz can`t handle me. Wan da real ans? Haha, i asked him. Y? He sed, "I`m sick of u" I was like, huh??? WTF?? #$@$#^%$&@ u~!! Okay, if i`m da 1 making him sick here (ATTENTION: IF I`M DA 1 MAKIN HIM SICK), y was it me yg owez look 4 him n get 2, 3 replies n no more, like he kena accident n can`t reply me back?

       Dats 1. 2, if i`m da 1 makin him sick, y was it me da 1 yg cried herself 2 sleep evrynite, cry evryday..tinking y her guy suddenly change n can`t stop missing him so much? Huh? I asked him dat. Guess wat? He can`t ans. I knew he can`t cuz I kno I`m da 1 yg kena penyakit here. I kno. He knows. N y...i can`t stop crying now dat i knew? Y...........still wana say its me? I love him so much.....n dis`s wat i get...thanks a lot u jantan...

     I told my bestie ryte after i saw his profile (lets c, he`s single, wana meet a new gal n my pic kena replace by dat PTTM). She sed...she knew me n him not gonna work cuz previous wan oso din..all actly. Nda tahan lama...i sed..mebe cuz i din listen 2 my dad....i broke da rules...evrything...i`m da rule breaker in da family u kno. Heeee...she sed juz 4get him....okay....i`ll try...try veeeeeeeeeerry, vvvvvveeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrryyyy haaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrddddddd...cuz i love dis baby...more than i loved anybdy else...

       D (my fren) told me 2 sabar, kan puasa ni..hahaha~! he`s gud at jokes alryte...he`s a gud fren...A Rmmber Ash? My X dat? He msg me suddenly...we talked n i told him i had 9 X...(now 10 la) He sed, wah, change bfs so fast ah. Hmm...like i wana change em over n over...u ppl dun say a gurl is a player if u dunno da real thing k. Juz bcuz she keep on changing bfs doesn`t mean she`s a player. Like me, I`m a loyal fren, lover n daughter. Wen i love smbdy, i love him wit evrything i hav. All other requests i tolak. Dun care la 2 b frens or wana gatal2 wit me. I shut em up. C how nice I m? I dun even hang wit my guy frens wen i`m smbdy`s gal. In my case wit Najib, I never. Except da time i go c Rog..juz 4 a while, u kno cuz me n rog kinda close...n ngam2 dat time we were at da same place..so...we met n najib called. I told him truthfully i was wit rog. He merajuk on da phone..den i start 2 leave rog, talking 2 najib on da phone..I dun wan him 2 b mad at me...

            Well..u may be seeing me bubbly n cheery n merry go-round...but mebe I`m broken inside...n nbdy knows it but my cat...come on la, even pretty gals ada ups n downs dia kay. Haha prasan...

             Well..like any other break ups...i delete evrything bout him...but....u kno da present i sed dat? I still havn`t give it 2 him...even da cakes...all spoiled...aih...well..he gave me happy memories....but i`ll cry wen i rmmber em...hows dat...ini la ni wen u break up...ur life`s gone......I`m playing dis song now..after dis..i won`t talk bout najib anymore...he`s my 10th x btw...11th 2 b exact. Hehe juz 2 keep my score.

Goodbye My Lover(X lover)

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

Hny`s Bday~!

     Wee it`s his bday comin n i`m so excited~! I mean come on, it`s da day my love was born n eventually, hooked on me~! Muax! I love him so much! Um...i`d been tinking wat 2 giv him....a card is a must...DIY wan of coz..cuz i tink it`s more sentimental...yeah, i`m jiwang at dis point. So wat, dun like it? Buzz off. Hee..i went 2 cp n go browse around nike....i guess I found da right shop~! Dat stupid nike at palm square no use oh. Adaka teda sleeveless...budu. Bgs saman tu kedai bikin samak ja.

     N I`m gonna bake cakes n cookies~! Yeah I`m serious....hee....wana guv a ring..but i won`t fit da bday part...a ring is like, more to Valentine`s Day..kan? Hehehe....N stuff 4 his car...well, dat is, if i c any yg nice, i get it...hehe, i sot ody...

     Mm...hny`s goin 2 ranau 2morro >again!< 4 da same reason...aiyah dat stupid task....

     I tink I`m gona go crazy if i stay wit si qi...dey`re makin me nuts....huhu help me~! Smbdy~!